Friday, June 26, 2015

Swim Suit Season

Time to be real.

I've been struggling a lot lately with my body. Can I really blame the gut and love handles on pregnancy when it's been over a year since I gave birth? I think not.

I'm about a pound over what I weighed prior to getting pregnant with Jonah, and three pounds LESS than what I weighed prior to getting pregnant with Noelle- but the tummy remains and my body in general is different (thank you, breastfeeding!)

beach trip 2013

I don't remember struggling with this as much after Noelle was born, but I was younger and I think that helped me bounce back a bit better. Plus, I think I was distracted by how much I loved my baby, I didn't nurse her (I think my body held on to fat when I was nursing Jonah), and I was busy balancing a baby and working part time.

I love sweets, and I noticed a definite change in metabolism as I got closer to 30. Those things combined do not make it easy to lose weight. And I have diastasis recti (split abs) about two finger tips wide, and after reading that some ab work-outs make it worse, I'm afraid to do ANY ab work.

But, even as I write this, I'm reminded that my soft tummy is still in part a reminder that I carried two babies. It's a reminder that I enjoy getting ice cream with Luke, and baking cookies with our littles. Some women can get a flat stomach after pregnancy, but that may not be me.

And with a beach vacation coming up, I've been stressing about wearing a bathing suit.

But as my friend Natalie reminded me with this blog post- my kids will not notice or remember what I looked like in a bathing suit. They will remember mom splashing and playing with them, running into the waves and laughing.

I want to make memories with them, and I want them to remember having fun with ME, not remember mom sitting on the sidelines.

The idea of getting into a swim suit is still not an easy one, but I'll be praying that God reminds me that I am His, made in His image, and that HE chose me to be the mom of Noelle and Jonah.

So, here's to a summer of fun in the sun!


  1. Oh, Megan, I think you're beautiful! And I'm so glad that the article was helpful. Thank you for sharing your heart... and know that you're not the only one facing these same issues!!

  2. Awww I love these photos- so cute! As for the bathing suit thing, GIRL, you look incredible and have no need to feel self-conscious AT ALL. I love that article you linked to- amen to that! You are beautiful, inside and out, and that's what's more important- the inside. :) The outside (which you certainly have!) is just a bonus.